And what I'm trying to impress mostly is: Read your Bible! Be dedicated to keeping with it, be prepared to discuss it, and be committed to try to live it! And trim your lamp, so you can see where you are going ...when the time comes to go. In the meantime, if you're waiting, perhaps you can build a birch canoe ...or establish the principles behind it. At least attempt to build some sort of improved relationship with your family ...and God.